RachelNicole

So I decided that since its the holidays I would ya know just do whatever I wanted. And Just wait till the new year. God I am trying soo hard to not cry right now. I weighed myself and I am 185. I went to american eagle yesterday and I was a size 14 perfectly. In the beginning of the year I was an 8… Idk what happened to me. and It sickens me that I let myself go. I am soo dissapointed in myself. I cant take it. I am going to put myself through a tough period to try and shed those pounds by spring. I know Ive tried and tried but almost tipping 200 Is the last straw for me. The absolute last. I want to be able to control my hunger and not be afraid of Food.. I am so afraid of food. I just eat and eat and I need to stop. It is going to stop right now. I am doing the half method I taught myself. Take everything I would normally eat and split in half. And I am going to work out Once a day. My goal is a size 6 by the time spring comes which is april or may. 40 pounds in 4-5 months seems doable right! Im sorry this is so long. I am just onm the verge of tears and its time for change.

 For good

Thanks for reading

If you have any words of wisdom please dont hesitate to share

I had a very successful 2 weeks of dieting, and I seemed to have slipped a little bit. I have been eating sugars again, Pizzas, fries all the things I washed away for 2 weeks straight. I havent dranken water in forever, and I eat way too much. I need to get back on it, and work harder. I didnt gain my 5 lbs back but Losing the 20 lbs by christmas is becomming less and less likely unless I get my stuff together.. Back on Track Starting!today! Me and my friend are gonna go to the gym after school. Im going to drink water and eat healthy again. I need to fit into my clothes again…

Any extra advice? Thanks alot =]

I went to the bathroom this morning and weighed myself and Saw I lost 5 lbs! I know it is only 5 lbs… But It is less than what I was…. It brightened my morning and made me smile the whole time I was getting dressed..

It was very motivational to know that I am making progress and I really am helping myself for the better….

I guess Its the small things in life that make your day… and as small as it was it kept my faith going

Are Baked beans bad if I drain the sauce and they dont have bacon?
Am I allowed to have a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich once in awhile?
Is Pasta ok if I dont eat a ton?

All questions I have been asking myself the past few days. If anyone can help thanks!

Other than that I have  been finding it quite easy to eat healthy. Ive been eating alot of vegetables, salad, drinking water…. I weighed myself yesterday but I was still the same weight.. its been a week But then again I havent been working out?
Is this why im not seeing results??

Well my dad said he is going to take me to the grocery store later tonight.. in like 2 hours soo if anyone reads this before hand and has suggestions on good healthy foods for dinner and snack.. Please comment!

I am gonna start working out tomorrow. The gym at my college is very nice and quite motivating..

I guess I’ll have to see

Until later xox

My last diet failed, and I know it is a hard word to say but it is true. But Starting Wednesday the 5th I have started a new Diet and said by Christmas I would be 20-25 lbs Lighter… Is that a realistic goal??

Well I decided to start over because I quit my old diet after a few weeks. I started college and got caught up in the Pizza, Fries, Bagels and soda Diet with Ice-cream and cake. So I went from 165-180 in a matter of 2 months. My Jeans barely fit… I am now up to a size 14 instead of a 10. It sucks, It really really does and I need to do this for myself. I know I am not extreamly overweight but I am so sick of looking the way I do. So sick of not being able to wear nice clothes from the brands I like, or having to wear a whole piece and have a muffin top.. and Even to be in double digit sizes. I am sure all of you can relate to me, and how hard it is. So I am going to do this for myself.

Dec 21 my cousin is comming hom from france. She is one of my best friends and I just want her to look at me and say “Wow Rachel. You look great” and that is exactly what I am going to do.

What I have been doing so far. I have been cutting out Butter, salt, sugar mayonaise any kind of condiment that can add those extra calories. Everyday for lunch I get a salad with a water.. I find it very hard to eat in my house. I live in a house of overweight people so everything in our freezer is Pizza, Hot Pockets or has meat in it.
I’m a vegetarian..but I eat fish and only fish. So it is very hard to eat what they eat and have to constantly fend for myself. It is not going to be easy but I can do this!
I believe in myself. I really really do.. 150-155 here I come.

So today was day one of my weight loss program and I failed. I dont exactly want to say failed but I did not succeed the way that I wanted to. I went out to dinner with my parents and tried to order something that wasnt deep fried and eat my salad and veggies if nothing else. I ended up getting a seafood sampler. Which was broiled and I did not feel to guilty about that. Then it came time for dessert. That is where I lost all self control. She said they had carrot cake which is one of my weaknesses and of course I gave in and had a piece. I felt totally guilty eating it. But boy did it taste good. Following my dinner my cousin had a small campfire get together where I ended up eating Marshmellows and Gram Crackers and Chips… I feel terrible for what I did… This is going to be way harder than I expected. But I refuse to keep this weight on me, I need ot lose it. I will lose it. No doubt in my mind but this is going to take alot alot alot of will power. More than I can even imagine.

Today I have decided that it was time to change my life. I am starting College in the fall and although it is late in the summer, and I know I cannot reach my goal in a month. It is never too late to make your life better.

I am starting out at a weight of 170 Lbs. I am 18 and 5′7 And my goal is 140. I know this is not going to be easy. Because I am very lazy and eat alot of Junk food.. But I am willing to do this. I need a change in my life and I am finally taking the first step in doing so. I am sick of being a size 12 and I would like to slim down to a 5. I was told by a friend that it is healthy to blog your daily activity and that it helps keep you motivated and on track. Which is why I joined this community. I would love support from anyone and I am willing to give support to many as well. I believe we all can do this.

So here goes =]